This post is very much for myself, I doubt it will be of much interest to anyone else.
For some reason I have always dedicated songs and sometimes whole albums to bad times in my life. Some of them are very difficult to listen to now such as Radiohead’s The Bends album. I loop songs as a way of coping with things and have been told this is weird.
Introduction to Seether:
In 2006 I was living in a crappy maisonnette with my abusive ex fiance. We had been together for 6 years and I’d struggled the whole time with his terrible mood swings and violent behaviour. In August we started meeting up with a guy who was a friend of a friend - he turned out to be in as much trouble with his mental health as I was. I decided that I really liked this person and had to help him get better so twice a week we’d meet up and hang out. Of course this made my fiance’s behaviour get even worse and I know if I hadn’t managed to leave in the end, one way or another, I wouldn’t be here now.
The music that helped me survive at that time were Tori Amos’ Little Earthquakes and Evanescence’s The Open Door. One day, I’d like to get “Silent All These Years” tattooed somewhere but daren’t because people will ask me what it means and I don’t want to talk about it.
The guy I had become friends with gave me a copy of Disclaimer 2 because Amy Lee from Evanescence sings on one of the songs. This was the first time I’d heard of Seether. It wasn’t the song with Amy that spoke to me though, it was actually “Driven Under”. I’d listen to it in the bath while wondering what the hell to do with myself and how I was going to escape my situation.
After a few more months I managed to get away from my ex and after only a couple of days I began seeing the guy I’d been meeting up with, we moved in together and things went from there. He is now my long suffering husband, bless him.
In 2008, a friend died in an accident and my song for that time is “Sympathetic” which is in fact my husband’s favourite Seether song. I wasn’t a massive fan of them at this point, I bought their next album for my husband for Christmas that year but we didn’t get to see them play until 2009 when they supported Staind. After that gig, I was smitten.
Andy and I got married in 2011, we had no music (and no people either lol) but my song for that time is “Tonight”. I don’t really do happy songs as such but it’s a good job this one exists by them or my relationship might be in trouble :P.
In 2012, I was able to see Seether twice. The first time they were supporting another band and didn’t seem that thrilled to be playing. We took my mum to both of these gigs which was an interesting experience.
In the middle of these 2 gigs, I went out and got my tattoo. It’s of my black cat, Jupiter, and the Seether song “Rise Above This”. I chose to use Jupiter over the other 3 kitties because I work in cat rescue and black cats are very hard to home. I’m doing a little advertising for them. “Rise Above This” is my favourite song and whenever life is difficult it’s a reminder for me to keep going. This picture is from before it was finished but I have yet to get around to taking another.
On November 5th we went to see the most special gig I’ve ever been to. I think it’s even more important than the first Manics show I saw in 1996 which was a life changer as I was only 14 and had never been to a gig before or even heard of the band. I was a HUGE fan of them for quite a few years. Seether played at Union Chapel in London and I was lucky enough to get tickets as an early Christmas gift from my husband. He has only been driving for a year but bravely drove me all the way down to London from Yorkshire and then into London itself.
The concert was amazing, for once I got to sit down without asking for disabled seats (I have M.E.) and had a brilliant view. (Pews are not comfy though and I do not miss sitting in churches!) The set was partly acoustic and they even had a cellist for a few songs. I’m a sucker for strings thanks to the Manics. I never thought I’d get to see “Sympathetic” played live or “Pass Slowly” (another song for a dead friend). Dale was very pissed which was entertaining but put me off the last few songs.
So now I’m left wondering when they will be back and hoping it won’t be a very long wait because I need to look forward to seeing them again.